I’ve read that you shouldn’t apologise when you’ve been absent from bloglife for a while; that you should carry on with your next post as if you haven’t been missing in action at all. But for the sake of #take12trips and for those of you who linked up earlier in the year to share your posts, I thought it fair to explain myself a little.
A couple of months ago, I came downstairs and snuggled into my favourite chair after a long day at work, and an almost endless bedtime for Holiday Baby. I told my mister that I needed to sort out the next linky for the #take12trips challenge, but I couldn’t face it. I just did not want to look at a computer screen any more that day.
Now he’s wise my mister, and sometimes he says stuff that frankly just sorts me out.
You love your blog – but if it starts to feel like work, you need to stop. You work all day and this is supposed to be fun.
It didn’t feel like fun.
He went on:
You’re in charge, here. You’re the one who created something from nothing. There’s no pressure on you besides what you’re putting on yourself. Just take a break.
So I did. And today is the first day I’ve opened my laptop since March 29th to do anything other than print out boarding passes.
I haven’t missed it at all, and I don’t know if I’m ready to fall back into regular writing again. But I do know that I’m done beating myself up for not doing what I believe to be enough, or for wishing I’d started my blog a year or two earlier than I did, when finding time in the evenings was much easier for me.
I know I can’t go on comparing myself to other bloggers, or feeling like I’ve failed for not achieving the little writing goals I set myself. Maybe one day this blog will become a business. Maybe it won’t. But it will be nothing at all if I don’t find the fun in it again, that’s for certain.
And so right now, I’m enjoying simple things like drinking Saturday morning coffee (or Sunday afternoon sangria) in the garden on my new patio furniture and watching rubbish on telly without worrying that I should be editing old posts, or sharing new ones furiously on social media. Me and the blog – well, we’re on a bit of a break until I feel better about it. And after reading this post by a favourite blogger of mine, I’ve realised that, yes, it’s ok to feel bad!
I know I’ll be back – and I’ll create better content when that happens. I’ve just come back from Majorca, and soon I’ll be off to Stockholm and then Greece. I’m feeling more inspired after lovely long chats with the mister over cheeky beers on Balearic beaches while Holiday Baby napped during our last trip, so it might well be sooner rather than later that I have some stuff to share.
I might be home now, but I’ve decided my head is still on holiday for a little while longer. I’ll be in touch soon.
Happy travels x